Iron and Wine and the Meatmen. I'm going to finish all my senior work tonight. If I'm done by ten Nara for a show. Good life.
Swineflu for lyfe.
New Records
School
I really hate school. It sucks so much and I really can't connect with anyone there except Becca. It's literally the most shitty place in the whole world. I want a new bike. Like a racing bike. Why do I feel like I need money so badly? Whatever.
I'm over the whole twitter thing. Why do people need 5+ social networking sites? I feel as if Facebook has kind of revolutionized the whole networking thing. Another thing I really hate about internet subculture are viral successes. Why do things like Boxxy (Link) and FML get so popular?
Oh and Virginia needs a velodrone.
Life
I'm not really sure what's going on right now. I think I'm going to start looking for a job so I can always have some security in my life. I literally have 63 cents in my bank account right now and it's quite a shitty feeling when you realize you can't even afford a gallon of gas. I want to be able to get more tattoos, a new phone, stuff for my dog when I move out, records, and furnishings for the new apartment. Why is life so hard? I don't know. Maybe that's just how all teens go through life. I hope I get some financial security sooner or later. Maybe after graduation. Oh and Becca will be gone until Saturday. Blows. I'm playing in an orchestra concert Sunday night. Everyone in the whole world should come. Good night.
Here's a bear for you.
Records
So I've officially begun my record collection. I wasted so much time before I began but I guess I never really realized that it was going to be so convenient. After school I had detention and picked up Becca after that. Nomnomnom'd some chipotle and went to orchestra. Vinyl Conflicts was so sick and I can't wait to go back again with more money. Everything is so good right now. Government Warning show tomorrow. Be there.
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Happiness
I finally got my camera back today! Here are some pictures of my favorite little guy Gus. I had an awesome day. Bass recital, chillin with Austin and Kayla, and then seeing Becca for the first time in like four days. I can't wait for this week. Everything is working itself out again.
Oh and Austin is my new official best friend and little sister. Suq it son.
<3
Exhaustion
Everything in my life has become exhausting. I have to finish what is essentially my whole senior year in two weeks. I have to learn the Eccles Sonata and work tirelessly on my bass playing so I can get into a more prestigious school this time next year. I need to get straight A's in my Godwin classes in the fourth nine weeks to guarantee good marks. I really hope that I'll get to reap the fruits of my labor soon.
A few things on my horizon that I'm really looking forward to are that I have an orchestra performance with the Richmond Symphony Youth Orchestra in May that will be excellent. If you want to go just let me know and I'll hook you up with information. I'm also looking to move into my apartment. Once I'm there and have a job and all that I'm going to start collecting vinyl. Mainly jazz, punk, hardcore, and indie. I can't wait. There are a few albums I've wanted for over a year that I've held back on and I think attempting to amass a broad collection will be a hobby I can really get behind in the future.
I'm really starting to think that my life sucks more than I think it does. If everything doesn't work I don't know where I'll be in even just a few months. It hurts so much to think that someone doesn't care as much as you do. I guess that's all I need to say for now. I have no plans on a Friday night. Being grounded is so depressing.
Passion
I have to say that the reason I'm starting a blog is that I feel a little betrayed. As more and more days pass by I'm feeling a pull towards love that I'm just not sure she feels. I don't mean anything by it, but I just feel like there's no one in the world I could care about more than her. Maybe it's just separation anxiety, but it's only been one day and I already miss her more than the world. I think that ever since I was grounded there was a dynamic change and I just don't know why. I wish there was a way to just snap my fingers and go back to two or three weeks ago. When it comes down to it I guess there are worse things than caring too much, but it's impossible for me to not be worried. I hope things settle down soon. I'm sure everything will work out. There's no way I won't make everything work. I have no doubts about my relationship with Becca. I just want everything to be okay again. My parents need to calm down and stop giving her shit. She's really a great girl. I feel like the only thing I have right now is Becca and my own beliefs. No matter where I am I'll always have straight edge. The things that I'm passionate about really fuse together who I am and what I'm going to become. This week has been a real roller coaster and it's just overwhelming. I love my new dog Gus, but I wish he didn't make so my parents so mad. They took my camera, car, wallet, ipod, keys, headphones, computer, and money. I'm not sure what to do to make everything right with them and it doesn't help that Logan isn't behind me right now either.
I just want everything right. My life is really coming together now and I can't wait to graduate and get my apartment.
And more than anything I want my camera back. I need my pictures of Gus.
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